Thank God For Friends

My friends amaze me. They amaze me in more ways than one. They amaze me with their craziness, their temperaments, their loudness, and their complete understanding of me. They amaze me because despite seeing who I was, who I am, and who I might become, they make me feel that they would still and always be a part of my life. If I could tell them in anyway that I appreciate having them in my life, this would be the time.

I have always known that I’m not the best kind of friend. I cannot come to my friend’s rescue at their beck and call. I don’t spend as much time with them as I should; and at times I can’t even call them or send them a simple message. I also know that I’m the type of person that is not easy to like, and I’m even harder to love. But despite all these, my friends continue to be there for me. They make me feel that I would always be a part of their lives as they are in mine. My world may not revolve around them and I cannot halt my life for them, but I hope they know that if I could share at least a moment’s time with them, I would.

Friendship, for me, is such a magical relationship. For me, it’s the foundation of love. It gives you security and assurance that someone will always be there for you even if you stumble and fall. It gives you that warm feeling that even if you have turned your life upside down, if you have at least one true friend, then you would be all right. That’s how they make me feel. No matter what form they take: the grumpy, the jolly, the shoppaholic, the bookaholic, the brother, the encouragement, the loud one, the crazy one, or the sweet one, they will always be my kind of people and no matter who I become or what I do, they would not judge me. I will always be that same girl they met way back when. 

Dedicated to: Janeth, Czarlette, Sorah, Joni, Pipan, Tin, Mary, Anne, Kuya Mike, Pao, Rigel, and to my closest friends... ^_^

Whose Opinion Really Matters

I found myself wondering one day whose opinion matters to me most. Was it my parent’s, my friend’s, my special someone, my co-worker’s, my acquaintances? The list goes on and on causing me to stop, think, and actually reflect.

I’ve met and seen people who- in the midst of wanting to fit in, all they had ever cared about is how people sees them. And I feel quite sad for them. ‘Cause, it might be so sad to live out your life trying to please everyone, trying to make everyone think better of you- that you lose yourself in the process. I’ve also met people in whom all that ever comes out of their lips are things that they can brag about- whether it be the brand of their clothes, their shoes, or their bags. They look down on people who they think can’t afford such luxuries. And yes, I was subjected to such kinds of pressures.- of wanting to fit in to get a little respect. 

It was then that I realized, their opinions never really mattered to me. I really didn’t care whether they think I’m rich or not, intelligent or not. Yes, it made me angry when they choose to think I have less of a brain that I actually have, but then again, I chose to walk away. I realized that at the end of the day, it’s not their opinions that matter most to me. Not even my parent’s, my friend’s, or my special someone. The opinion that mattered to me was God’s. 

Because when the time comes, God won’t ask me what brand of clothes I wore, or where I bought my shoe, or whether I ate at expensive restaurants or not; He would ask me, what I have in my heart. If my heart was honest, and strong. If my mind was innocent. And if He stripped me down to my very core, would He see a person He can call His child, or would I be a disappointment.

It is not wrong to prove yourself to someone who thinks less of you. It’s not even wrong to try to fit in to avoid confrontation. It only becomes wrong when you lose yourself in the process. When you don’t even know who you truly are anymore. I leave you with a quote that really made me think:

“Do what you love and what makes you happy. Don’t be afraid of what other people would think or say, because even if you do everything that pleases them, people always have something to say.”